FRANKENSTEIN
PART 11
Chapter 21
I was soon
introduced into the presence of the magistrate, an old benevolent man with calm
and mild manners. He looked upon me, however, with some degree of severity, and
then, turning towards my conductors, he asked who appeared as witnesses on this
occasion.
About half
a dozen men came forward; and, one being selected by the magistrate, he deposed
that he had been out fishing the night before with his son and brother-in-law,
Daniel Nugent, when, about ten o'clock, they observed a strong northerly blast
rising, and they accordingly put in for port. It was a very dark night, as the
moon had not yet risen; they did not land at the harbour, but, as they had been
accustomed, at a creek about two miles below. He walked on first, carrying a
part of the fishing tackle, and his companions followed him at some distance.
As he was
proceeding along the sands, he struck his foot against something and fell at
his length on the ground. His companions came up to assist him, and by the
light of their lantern they found that he had fallen on the body of a man, who
was to all appearance dead. Their first supposition was that it was the corpse
of some person who had been drowned and was thrown on shore by the waves, but
on examination they found that the clothes were not wet and even that the body
was not then cold. They instantly carried it to the cottage of an old woman
near the spot and endeavoured, but in vain, to restore it to life. It appeared
to be a handsome young man, about five and twenty years of age. He had apparently
been strangled, for there was no sign of any violence except the black mark of
fingers on his neck.
The first
part of this deposition did not in the least interest me, but when the mark of
the fingers was mentioned I remembered the murder of my brother and felt myself
extremely agitated; my limbs trembled, and a mist came over my eyes, which
obliged me to lean on a chair for support. The magistrate observed me with a
keen eye and of course drew an unfavourable augury from my manner.
The son
confirmed his father's account, but when Daniel Nugent was called he swore
positively that just before the fall of his companion, he saw a boat, with a
single man in it, at a short distance from the shore; and as far as he could
judge by the light of a few stars, it was the same boat in which I had just
landed. A woman deposed that she lived near the beach and was standing at the
door of her cottage, waiting for the return of the fishermen, about an hour
before she heard of the discovery of the body, when she saw a boat with only
one man in it push off from that part of the shore where the corpse was
afterwards found.
Another
woman confirmed the account of the fishermen having brought the body into her
house; it was not cold. They put it into a bed and rubbed it, and Daniel went
to the town for an apothecary, but life was quite gone.
Several
other men were examined concerning my landing, and they agreed that, with the
strong north wind that had arisen during the night, it was very probable that I
had beaten about for many hours and had been obliged to return nearly to the
same spot from which I had departed. Besides, they observed that it appeared
that I had brought the body from another place, and it was likely that as I did
not appear to know the shore, I might have put into the harbour ignorant of the
distance of the town of —— from the place where I had deposited the corpse.
Mr.
Kirwin, on hearing this evidence, desired that I should be taken into the room
where the body lay for interment, that it might be observed what effect the
sight of it would produce upon me. This idea was probably suggested by the
extreme agitation I had exhibited when the mode of the murder had been
described. I was accordingly conducted, by the magistrate and several other
persons, to the inn. I could not help being struck by the strange coincidences
that had taken place during this eventful night; but, knowing that I had been
conversing with several persons in the island I had inhabited about the time
that the body had been found, I was perfectly tranquil as to the consequences
of the affair. I entered the room where the corpse lay and was led up to the
coffin. How can I describe my sensations on beholding it? I feel yet parched
with horror, nor can I reflect on that terrible moment without shuddering and
agony. The examination, the presence of the magistrate and witnesses, passed
like a dream from my memory when I saw the lifeless form of Henry Clerval
stretched before me. I gasped for breath, and throwing myself on the body, I
exclaimed, "Have my murderous machinations deprived you also, my dearest
Henry, of life? Two I have already destroyed; other victims await their
destiny; but you, Clerval, my friend, my benefactor—"
The human
frame could no longer support the agonies that I endured, and I was carried out
of the room in strong convulsions. A fever succeeded to this. I lay for two
months on the point of death; my ravings, as I afterwards heard, were
frightful; I called myself the murderer of William, of Justine, and of Clerval.
Sometimes I entreated my attendants to assist me in the destruction of the
fiend by whom I was tormented; and at others I felt the fingers of the monster
already grasping my neck, and screamed aloud with agony and terror.
Fortunately, as I spoke my native language, Mr. Kirwin alone understood me; but
my gestures and bitter cries were sufficient to affright the other witnesses.
Why did I not die? More miserable than man ever was before, why did I not sink
into forgetfulness and rest? Death snatches away many blooming children, the
only hopes of their doting parents; how many brides and youthful lovers have
been one day in the bloom of health and hope, and the next a prey for worms and
the decay of the tomb! Of what materials was I made that I could thus resist so
many shocks, which, like the turning of the wheel, continually renewed the
torture?
But I was
doomed to live and in two months found myself as awaking from a dream, in a
prison, stretched on a wretched bed, surrounded by jailers, turnkeys, bolts,
and all the miserable apparatus of a dungeon. It was morning, I remember, when
I thus awoke to understanding; I had forgotten the particulars of what had
happened and only felt as if some great misfortune had suddenly overwhelmed me;
but when I looked around and saw the barred windows and the squalidness of the
room in which I was, all flashed across my memory and I groaned bitterly.
This sound
disturbed an old woman who was sleeping in a chair beside me. She was a hired
nurse, the wife of one of the turnkeys, and her countenance expressed all those
bad qualities which often characterize that class. The lines of her face were
hard and rude, like that of persons accustomed to see without sympathizing in
sights of misery. Her tone expressed her entire indifference; she addressed me
in English, and the voice struck me as one that I had heard during my
sufferings. "Are you better now, sir?" said she.
I replied
in the same language, with a feeble voice, "I believe I am; but if it be
all true, if indeed I did not dream, I am sorry that I am still alive to feel
this misery and horror."
"For
that matter," replied the old woman, "if you mean about the gentleman
you murdered, I believe that it were better for you if you were dead, for I
fancy it will go hard with you! However, that's none of my business; I am sent
to nurse you and get you well; I do my duty with a safe conscience; it were
well if everybody did the same."
I turned
with loathing from the woman who could utter so unfeeling a speech to a person
just saved, on the very edge of death; but I felt languid and unable to reflect
on all that had passed. The whole series of my life appeared to me as a dream;
I sometimes doubted if indeed it were all true, for it never presented itself
to my mind with the force of reality.
As the
images that floated before me became more distinct, I grew feverish; a darkness
pressed around me; no one was near me who soothed me with the gentle voice of
love; no dear hand supported me. The physician came and prescribed medicines,
and the old woman prepared them for me; but utter carelessness was visible in
the first, and the expression of brutality was strongly marked in the visage of
the second. Who could be interested in the fate of a murderer but the hangman
who would gain his fee?
These were
my first reflections, but I soon learned that Mr. Kirwin had shown me extreme
kindness. He had caused the best room in the prison to be prepared for me
(wretched indeed was the best); and it was he who had provided a physician and
a nurse. It is true, he seldom came to see me, for although he ardently desired
to relieve the sufferings of every human creature, he did not wish to be
present at the agonies and miserable ravings of a murderer. He came, therefore,
sometimes to see that I was not neglected, but his visits were short and with
long intervals. One day, while I was gradually recovering, I was seated in a
chair, my eyes half open and my cheeks livid like those in death. I was
overcome by gloom and misery and often reflected I had better seek death than
desire to remain in a world which to me was replete with wretchedness. At one
time I considered whether I should not declare myself guilty and suffer the
penalty of the law, less innocent than poor Justine had been. Such were my
thoughts when the door of my apartment was opened and Mr. Kirwin entered. His
countenance expressed sympathy and compassion; he drew a chair close to mine
and addressed me in French, "I fear that this place is very shocking to
you; can I do anything to make you more comfortable?"
"I
thank you, but all that you mention is nothing to me; on the whole earth there
is no comfort which I am capable of receiving."
"I
know that the sympathy of a stranger can be but of little relief to one borne
down as you are by so strange a misfortune. But you will, I hope, soon quit
this melancholy abode, for doubtless evidence can easily be brought to free you
from the criminal charge."
"That
is my least concern; I am, by a course of strange events, become the most
miserable of mortals. Persecuted and tortured as I am and have been, can death
be any evil to me?"
"Nothing
indeed could be more unfortunate and agonizing than the strange chances that
have lately occurred. You were thrown, by some surprising accident, on this
shore, renowned for its hospitality, seized immediately, and charged with
murder. The first sight that was presented to your eyes was the body of your
friend, murdered in so unaccountable a manner and placed, as it were, by some
fiend across your path."
As Mr.
Kirwin said this, notwithstanding the agitation I endured on this retrospect of
my sufferings, I also felt considerable surprise at the knowledge he seemed to
possess concerning me. I suppose some astonishment was exhibited in my
countenance, for Mr. Kirwin hastened to say, "Immediately upon your being
taken ill, all the papers that were on your person were brought me, and I
examined them that I might discover some trace by which I could send to your
relations an account of your misfortune and illness. I found several letters, and,
among others, one which I discovered from its commencement to be from your
father. I instantly wrote to Geneva; nearly two months have elapsed since the
departure of my letter. But you are ill; even now you tremble; you are unfit
for agitation of any kind."
"This
suspense is a thousand times worse than the most horrible event; tell me what
new scene of death has been acted, and whose murder I am now to lament?"
"Your
family is perfectly well," said Mr. Kirwin with gentleness; "and
someone, a friend, is come to visit you."
I know not
by what chain of thought the idea presented itself, but it instantly darted
into my mind that the murderer had come to mock at my misery and taunt me with
the death of Clerval, as a new incitement for me to comply with his hellish
desires. I put my hand before my eyes, and cried out in agony, "Oh! Take
him away! I cannot see him; for God's sake, do not let him enter!"
Mr. Kirwin
regarded me with a troubled countenance. He could not help regarding my
exclamation as a presumption of my guilt and said in rather a severe tone,
"I should have thought, young man, that the presence of your father would
have been welcome instead of inspiring such violent repugnance."
"My
father!" cried I, while every feature and every muscle was relaxed from
anguish to pleasure. "Is my father indeed come? How kind, how very kind!
But where is he, why does he not hasten to me?"
My change
of manner surprised and pleased the magistrate; perhaps he thought that my
former exclamation was a momentary return of delirium, and now he instantly
resumed his former benevolence. He rose and quitted the room with my nurse, and
in a moment my father entered it.
Nothing,
at this moment, could have given me greater pleasure than the arrival of my
father. I stretched out my hand to him and cried, "Are you, then, safe—and
Elizabeth—and Ernest?" My father calmed me with assurances of their
welfare and endeavoured, by dwelling on these subjects so interesting to my
heart, to raise my desponding spirits; but he soon felt that a prison cannot be
the abode of cheerfulness.
"What
a place is this that you inhabit, my son!" said he, looking mournfully at
the barred windows and wretched appearance of the room. "You travelled to
seek happiness, but a fatality seems to pursue you. And poor Clerval—"
The name
of my unfortunate and murdered friend was an agitation too great to be endured
in my weak state; I shed tears. "Alas! Yes, my father," replied I;
"some destiny of the most horrible kind hangs over me, and I must live to
fulfil it, or surely I should have died on the coffin of Henry."
We were
not allowed to converse for any length of time, for the precarious state of my
health rendered every precaution necessary that could ensure tranquillity. Mr.
Kirwin came in and insisted that my strength should not be exhausted by too
much exertion. But the appearance of my father was to me like that of my good
angel, and I gradually recovered my health.
As my
sickness quitted me, I was absorbed by a gloomy and black melancholy that
nothing could dissipate. The image of Clerval was forever before me, ghastly
and murdered. More than once the agitation into which these reflections threw
me made my friends dread a dangerous relapse. Alas! Why did they preserve so
miserable and detested a life? It was surely that I might fulfil my destiny,
which is now drawing to a close. Soon, oh, very soon, will death extinguish
these throbbings and relieve me from the mighty weight of anguish that bears me
to the dust; and, in executing the award of justice, I shall also sink to rest.
Then the appearance of death was distant, although the wish was ever present to
my thoughts; and I often sat for hours motionless and speechless, wishing for
some mighty revolution that might bury me and my destroyer in its ruins.
The season
of the assizes approached. I had already been three months in prison, and
although I was still weak and in continual danger of a relapse, I was obliged
to travel nearly a hundred miles to the country town where the court was held.
Mr. Kirwin charged himself with every care of collecting witnesses and
arranging my defence. I was spared the disgrace of appearing publicly as a
criminal, as the case was not brought before the court that decides on life and
death. The grand jury rejected the bill, on its being proved that I was on the
Orkney Islands at the hour the body of my friend was found; and a fortnight
after my removal I was liberated from prison.
My father
was enraptured on finding me freed from the vexations of a criminal charge,
that I was again allowed to breathe the fresh atmosphere and permitted to
return to my native country. I did not participate in these feelings, for to me
the walls of a dungeon or a palace were alike hateful. The cup of life was
poisoned forever, and although the sun shone upon me, as upon the happy and gay
of heart, I saw around me nothing but a dense and frightful darkness,
penetrated by no light but the glimmer of two eyes that glared upon me. Sometimes
they were the expressive eyes of Henry, languishing in death, the dark orbs
nearly covered by the lids and the long black lashes that fringed them;
sometimes it was the watery, clouded eyes of the monster, as I first saw them
in my chamber at Ingolstadt.
My father
tried to awaken in me the feelings of affection. He talked of Geneva, which I
should soon visit, of Elizabeth and Ernest; but these words only drew deep
groans from me. Sometimes, indeed, I felt a wish for happiness and thought with
melancholy delight of my beloved cousin or longed, with a devouring maladie du
pays, to see once more the blue lake and rapid Rhone, that had been so dear to
me in early childhood; but my general state of feeling was a torpor in which a
prison was as welcome a residence as the divinest scene in nature; and these
fits were seldom interrupted but by paroxysms of anguish and despair. At these
moments I often endeavoured to put an end to the existence I loathed, and it
required unceasing attendance and vigilance to restrain me from committing some
dreadful act of violence.
Yet one
duty remained to me, the recollection of which finally triumphed over my
selfish despair. It was necessary that I should return without delay to Geneva,
there to watch over the lives of those I so fondly loved and to lie in wait for
the murderer, that if any chance led me to the place of his concealment, or if
he dared again to blast me by his presence, I might, with unfailing aim, put an
end to the existence of the monstrous image which I had endued with the mockery
of a soul still more monstrous. My father still desired to delay our departure,
fearful that I could not sustain the fatigues of a journey, for I was a
shattered wreck—the shadow of a human being. My strength was gone. I was a mere
skeleton, and fever night and day preyed upon my wasted frame. Still, as I
urged our leaving Ireland with such inquietude and impatience, my father
thought it best to yield. We took our passage on board a vessel bound for
Havre-de-Grace and sailed with a fair wind from the Irish shores. It was
midnight. I lay on the deck looking at the stars and listening to the dashing
of the waves. I hailed the darkness that shut Ireland from my sight, and my
pulse beat with a feverish joy when I reflected that I should soon see Geneva.
The past appeared to me in the light of a frightful dream; yet the vessel in
which I was, the wind that blew me from the detested shore of Ireland, and the
sea which surrounded me told me too forcibly that I was deceived by no vision
and that Clerval, my friend and dearest companion, had fallen a victim to me
and the monster of my creation. I repassed, in my memory, my whole life—my
quiet happiness while residing with my family in Geneva, the death of my
mother, and my departure for Ingolstadt. I remembered, shuddering, the mad
enthusiasm that hurried me on to the creation of my hideous enemy, and I called
to mind the night in which he first lived. I was unable to pursue the train of
thought; a thousand feelings pressed upon me, and I wept bitterly. Ever since
my recovery from the fever I had been in the custom of taking every night a
small quantity of laudanum, for it was by means of this drug only that I was
enabled to gain the rest necessary for the preservation of life. Oppressed by
the recollection of my various misfortunes, I now swallowed double my usual
quantity and soon slept profoundly. But sleep did not afford me respite from
thought and misery; my dreams presented a thousand objects that scared me.
Towards morning I was possessed by a kind of nightmare; I felt the fiend's
grasp in my neck and could not free myself from it; groans and cries rang in my
ears. My father, who was watching over me, perceiving my restlessness, awoke
me; the dashing waves were around, the cloudy sky above, the fiend was not
here: a sense of security, a feeling that a truce was established between the
present hour and the irresistible, disastrous future imparted to me a kind of
calm forgetfulness, of which the human mind is by its structure peculiarly susceptible.
Chapter 22
The voyage
came to an end. We landed, and proceeded to Paris. I soon found that I had
overtaxed my strength and that I must repose before I could continue my
journey. My father's care and attentions were indefatigable, but he did not know
the origin of my sufferings and sought erroneous methods to remedy the
incurable ill. He wished me to seek amusement in society. I abhorred the face
of man. Oh, not abhorred! They were my brethren, my fellow beings, and I felt
attracted even to the most repulsive among them, as to creatures of an angelic
nature and celestial mechanism. But I felt that I had no right to share their
intercourse. I had unchained an enemy among them whose joy it was to shed their
blood and to revel in their groans. How they would, each and all, abhor me and
hunt me from the world did they know my unhallowed acts and the crimes which
had their source in me!
My father
yielded at length to my desire to avoid society and strove by various arguments
to banish my despair. Sometimes he thought that I felt deeply the degradation
of being obliged to answer a charge of murder, and he endeavoured to prove to
me the futility of pride.
"Alas!
My father," said I, "how little do you know me. Human beings, their
feelings and passions, would indeed be degraded if such a wretch as I felt
pride. Justine, poor unhappy Justine, was as innocent as I, and she suffered
the same charge; she died for it; and I am the cause of this—I murdered her.
William, Justine, and Henry—they all died by my hands."
My father
had often, during my imprisonment, heard me make the same assertion; when I
thus accused myself, he sometimes seemed to desire an explanation, and at
others he appeared to consider it as the offspring of delirium, and that,
during my illness, some idea of this kind had presented itself to my
imagination, the remembrance of which I preserved in my convalescence.
I avoided
explanation and maintained a continual silence concerning the wretch I had
created. I had a persuasion that I should be supposed mad, and this in itself
would forever have chained my tongue. But, besides, I could not bring myself to
disclose a secret which would fill my hearer with consternation and make fear
and unnatural horror the inmates of his breast. I checked, therefore, my
impatient thirst for sympathy and was silent when I would have given the world
to have confided the fatal secret. Yet, still, words like those I have recorded
would burst uncontrollably from me. I could offer no explanation of them, but
their truth in part relieved the burden of my mysterious woe. Upon this
occasion my father said, with an expression of unbounded wonder, "My
dearest Victor, what infatuation is this? My dear son, I entreat you never to
make such an assertion again."
"I am
not mad," I cried energetically; "the sun and the heavens, who have
viewed my operations, can bear witness of my truth. I am the assassin of those
most innocent victims; they died by my machinations. A thousand times would I
have shed my own blood, drop by drop, to have saved their lives; but I could
not, my father, indeed I could not sacrifice the whole human race."
The
conclusion of this speech convinced my father that my ideas were deranged, and
he instantly changed the subject of our conversation and endeavoured to alter
the course of my thoughts. He wished as much as possible to obliterate the
memory of the scenes that had taken place in Ireland and never alluded to them
or suffered me to speak of my misfortunes.
As time
passed away I became more calm; misery had her dwelling in my heart, but I no
longer talked in the same incoherent manner of my own crimes; sufficient for me
was the consciousness of them. By the utmost self-violence I curbed the
imperious voice of wretchedness, which sometimes desired to declare itself to
the whole world, and my manners were calmer and more composed than they had
ever been since my journey to the sea of ice. A few days before we left Paris
on our way to Switzerland, I received the following letter from Elizabeth:
"My dear Friend,
"It
gave me the greatest pleasure to receive a letter from my uncle dated at Paris;
you are no longer at a formidable distance, and I may hope to see you in less
than a fortnight. My poor cousin, how much you must have suffered! I expect to
see you looking even more ill than when you quitted Geneva. This winter has
been passed most miserably, tortured as I have been by anxious suspense; yet I
hope to see peace in your countenance and to find that your heart is not
totally void of comfort and tranquillity.
"Yet
I fear that the same feelings now exist that made you so miserable a year ago,
even perhaps augmented by time. I would not disturb you at this period, when so
many misfortunes weigh upon you, but a conversation that I had with my uncle
previous to his departure renders some explanation necessary before we meet.
Explanation! You may possibly say, What can Elizabeth have to explain? If you
really say this, my questions are answered and all my doubts satisfied. But you
are distant from me, and it is possible that you may dread and yet be pleased
with this explanation; and in a probability of this being the case, I dare not
any longer postpone writing what, during your absence, I have often wished to
express to you but have never had the courage to begin.
"You
well know, Victor, that our union had been the favourite plan of your parents
ever since our infancy. We were told this when young, and taught to look
forward to it as an event that would certainly take place. We were affectionate
playfellows during childhood, and, I believe, dear and valued friends to one
another as we grew older. But as brother and sister often entertain a lively
affection towards each other without desiring a more intimate union, may not
such also be our case? Tell me, dearest Victor. Answer me, I conjure you by our
mutual happiness, with simple truth—Do you not love another?
"You
have travelled; you have spent several years of your life at Ingolstadt; and I
confess to you, my friend, that when I saw you last autumn so unhappy, flying
to solitude from the society of every creature, I could not help supposing that
you might regret our connection and believe yourself bound in honour to fulfil
the wishes of your parents, although they opposed themselves to your
inclinations. But this is false reasoning. I confess to you, my friend, that I
love you and that in my airy dreams of futurity you have been my constant
friend and companion. But it is your happiness I desire as well as my own when
I declare to you that our marriage would render me eternally miserable unless
it were the dictate of your own free choice. Even now I weep to think that,
borne down as you are by the cruellest misfortunes, you may stifle, by the word
'honour,' all hope of that love and happiness which would alone restore you to
yourself. I, who have so disinterested an affection for you, may increase your
miseries tenfold by being an obstacle to your wishes. Ah! Victor, be assured
that your cousin and playmate has too sincere a love for you not to be made
miserable by this supposition. Be happy, my friend; and if you obey me in this
one request, remain satisfied that nothing on earth will have the power to
interrupt my tranquillity.
"Do
not let this letter disturb you; do not answer tomorrow, or the next day, or
even until you come, if it will give you pain. My uncle will send me news of
your health, and if I see but one smile on your lips when we meet, occasioned
by this or any other exertion of mine, I shall need no other happiness.
"Elizabeth Lavenza
"Geneva, May 18th, 17—"
"Geneva, May 18th, 17—"
This
letter revived in my memory what I had before forgotten, the threat of the
fiend—"I WILL BE WITH YOU ON YOUR WEDDING-NIGHT!" Such was my
sentence, and on that night would the daemon employ every art to destroy me and
tear me from the glimpse of happiness which promised partly to console my
sufferings. On that night he had determined to consummate his crimes by my
death. Well, be it so; a deadly struggle would then assuredly take place, in
which if he were victorious I should be at peace and his power over me be at an
end. If he were vanquished, I should be a free man. Alas! What freedom? Such as
the peasant enjoys when his family have been massacred before his eyes, his
cottage burnt, his lands laid waste, and he is turned adrift, homeless,
penniless, and alone, but free. Such would be my liberty except that in my
Elizabeth I possessed a treasure, alas, balanced by those horrors of remorse
and guilt which would pursue me until death.
Sweet and
beloved Elizabeth! I read and reread her letter, and some softened feelings
stole into my heart and dared to whisper paradisiacal dreams of love and joy;
but the apple was already eaten, and the angel's arm bared to drive me from all
hope. Yet I would die to make her happy. If the monster executed his threat,
death was inevitable; yet, again, I considered whether my marriage would hasten
my fate. My destruction might indeed arrive a few months sooner, but if my
torturer should suspect that I postponed it, influenced by his menaces, he
would surely find other and perhaps more dreadful means of revenge.
He had
vowed TO BE WITH ME ON MY WEDDING-NIGHT, yet he did not consider that threat as
binding him to peace in the meantime, for as if to show me that he was not yet
satiated with blood, he had murdered Clerval immediately after the enunciation
of his threats. I resolved, therefore, that if my immediate union with my
cousin would conduce either to hers or my father's happiness, my adversary's
designs against my life should not retard it a single hour.
In this
state of mind I wrote to Elizabeth. My letter was calm and affectionate.
"I fear, my beloved girl," I said, "little happiness remains for
us on earth; yet all that I may one day enjoy is centred in you. Chase away
your idle fears; to you alone do I consecrate my life and my endeavours for
contentment. I have one secret, Elizabeth, a dreadful one; when revealed to
you, it will chill your frame with horror, and then, far from being surprised
at my misery, you will only wonder that I survive what I have endured. I will
confide this tale of misery and terror to you the day after our marriage shall
take place, for, my sweet cousin, there must be perfect confidence between us.
But until then, I conjure you, do not mention or allude to it. This I most
earnestly entreat, and I know you will comply."
In about a
week after the arrival of Elizabeth's letter we returned to Geneva. The sweet
girl welcomed me with warm affection, yet tears were in her eyes as she beheld
my emaciated frame and feverish cheeks. I saw a change in her also. She was
thinner and had lost much of that heavenly vivacity that had before charmed me;
but her gentleness and soft looks of compassion made her a more fit companion
for one blasted and miserable as I was. The tranquillity which I now enjoyed
did not endure. Memory brought madness with it, and when I thought of what had
passed, a real insanity possessed me; sometimes I was furious and burnt with
rage, sometimes low and despondent. I neither spoke nor looked at anyone, but
sat motionless, bewildered by the multitude of miseries that overcame me.
Elizabeth
alone had the power to draw me from these fits; her gentle voice would soothe
me when transported by passion and inspire me with human feelings when sunk in
torpor. She wept with me and for me. When reason returned, she would
remonstrate and endeavour to inspire me with resignation. Ah! It is well for
the unfortunate to be resigned, but for the guilty there is no peace. The
agonies of remorse poison the luxury there is otherwise sometimes found in
indulging the excess of grief. Soon after my arrival my father spoke of my
immediate marriage with Elizabeth. I remained silent.
"Have
you, then, some other attachment?"
"None
on earth. I love Elizabeth and look forward to our union with delight. Let the
day therefore be fixed; and on it I will consecrate myself, in life or death,
to the happiness of my cousin."
"My
dear Victor, do not speak thus. Heavy misfortunes have befallen us, but let us
only cling closer to what remains and transfer our love for those whom we have
lost to those who yet live. Our circle will be small but bound close by the
ties of affection and mutual misfortune. And when time shall have softened your
despair, new and dear objects of care will be born to replace those of whom we
have been so cruelly deprived."
Such were
the lessons of my father. But to me the remembrance of the threat returned; nor
can you wonder that, omnipotent as the fiend had yet been in his deeds of
blood, I should almost regard him as invincible, and that when he had
pronounced the words "I SHALL BE WITH YOU ON YOUR WEDDING-NIGHT," I
should regard the threatened fate as unavoidable. But death was no evil to me
if the loss of Elizabeth were balanced with it, and I therefore, with a
contented and even cheerful countenance, agreed with my father that if my
cousin would consent, the ceremony should take place in ten days, and thus put,
as I imagined, the seal to my fate.
Great God!
If for one instant I had thought what might be the hellish intention of my
fiendish adversary, I would rather have banished myself forever from my native
country and wandered a friendless outcast over the earth than have consented to
this miserable marriage. But, as if possessed of magic powers, the monster had
blinded me to his real intentions; and when I thought that I had prepared only
my own death, I hastened that of a far dearer victim.
As the
period fixed for our marriage drew nearer, whether from cowardice or a
prophetic feeling, I felt my heart sink within me. But I concealed my feelings
by an appearance of hilarity that brought smiles and joy to the countenance of
my father, but hardly deceived the ever-watchful and nicer eye of Elizabeth.
She looked forward to our union with placid contentment, not unmingled with a
little fear, which past misfortunes had impressed, that what now appeared
certain and tangible happiness might soon dissipate into an airy dream and
leave no trace but deep and everlasting regret. Preparations were made for the
event, congratulatory visits were received, and all wore a smiling appearance.
I shut up, as well as I could, in my own heart the anxiety that preyed there
and entered with seeming earnestness into the plans of my father, although they
might only serve as the decorations of my tragedy. Through my father's
exertions a part of the inheritance of Elizabeth had been restored to her by
the Austrian government. A small possession on the shores of Como belonged to
her. It was agreed that, immediately after our union, we should proceed to
Villa Lavenza and spend our first days of happiness beside the beautiful lake
near which it stood.
In the meantime
I took every precaution to defend my person in case the fiend should openly
attack me. I carried pistols and a dagger constantly about me and was ever on
the watch to prevent artifice, and by these means gained a greater degree of
tranquillity. Indeed, as the period approached, the threat appeared more as a
delusion, not to be regarded as worthy to disturb my peace, while the happiness
I hoped for in my marriage wore a greater appearance of certainty as the day
fixed for its solemnization drew nearer and I heard it continually spoken of as
an occurrence which no accident could possibly prevent.
Elizabeth
seemed happy; my tranquil demeanour contributed greatly to calm her mind. But
on the day that was to fulfil my wishes and my destiny, she was melancholy, and
a presentiment of evil pervaded her; and perhaps also she thought of the
dreadful secret which I had promised to reveal to her on the following day. My
father was in the meantime overjoyed and in the bustle of preparation only
recognized in the melancholy of his niece the diffidence of a bride.
After the
ceremony was performed a large party assembled at my father's, but it was
agreed that Elizabeth and I should commence our journey by water, sleeping that
night at Evian and continuing our voyage on the following day. The day was
fair, the wind favourable; all smiled on our nuptial embarkation.
Those were
the last moments of my life during which I enjoyed the feeling of happiness. We
passed rapidly along; the sun was hot, but we were sheltered from its rays by a
kind of canopy while we enjoyed the beauty of the scene, sometimes on one side
of the lake, where we saw Mont Saleve, the pleasant banks of Montalegre, and at
a distance, surmounting all, the beautiful Mont Blanc and the assemblage of snowy
mountains that in vain endeavour to emulate her; sometimes coasting the
opposite banks, we saw the mighty Jura opposing its dark side to the ambition
that would quit its native country, and an almost insurmountable barrier to the
invader who should wish to enslave it.
I took the
hand of Elizabeth. "You are sorrowful, my love. Ah! If you knew what I
have suffered and what I may yet endure, you would endeavour to let me taste
the quiet and freedom from despair that this one day at least permits me to
enjoy."
"Be
happy, my dear Victor," replied Elizabeth; "there is, I hope, nothing
to distress you; and be assured that if a lively joy is not painted in my face,
my heart is contented. Something whispers to me not to depend too much on the
prospect that is opened before us, but I will not listen to such a sinister
voice. Observe how fast we move along and how the clouds, which sometimes
obscure and sometimes rise above the dome of Mont Blanc, render this scene of
beauty still more interesting. Look also at the innumerable fish that are
swimming in the clear waters, where we can distinguish every pebble that lies
at the bottom. What a divine day! How happy and serene all nature
appears!"
Thus
Elizabeth endeavoured to divert her thoughts and mine from all reflection upon
melancholy subjects. But her temper was fluctuating; joy for a few instants
shone in her eyes, but it continually gave place to distraction and reverie.
The sun
sank lower in the heavens; we passed the river Drance and observed its path
through the chasms of the higher and the glens of the lower hills. The Alps
here come closer to the lake, and we approached the amphitheatre of mountains
which forms its eastern boundary. The spire of Evian shone under the woods that
surrounded it and the range of mountain above mountain by which it was
overhung.
The wind,
which had hitherto carried us along with amazing rapidity, sank at sunset to a
light breeze; the soft air just ruffled the water and caused a pleasant motion
among the trees as we approached the shore, from which it wafted the most
delightful scent of flowers and hay. The sun sank beneath the horizon as we
landed, and as I touched the shore I felt those cares and fears revive which
soon were to clasp me and cling to me forever.
To be continued