FRANKENSTEIN
PART 6
Chapter 10
I spent
the following day roaming through the valley. I stood beside the sources of the
Arveiron, which take their rise in a glacier, that with slow pace is advancing
down from the summit of the hills to barricade the valley. The abrupt sides of
vast mountains were before me; the icy wall of the glacier overhung me; a few
shattered pines were scattered around; and the solemn silence of this glorious
presence-chamber of imperial nature was broken only by the brawling waves or
the fall of some vast fragment, the thunder sound of the avalanche or the
cracking, reverberated along the mountains, of the accumulated ice, which,
through the silent working of immutable laws, was ever and anon rent and torn,
as if it had been but a plaything in their hands. These sublime and magnificent
scenes afforded me the greatest consolation that I was capable of receiving.
They elevated me from all littleness of feeling, and although they did not
remove my grief, they subdued and tranquillized it. In some degree, also, they
diverted my mind from the thoughts over which it had brooded for the last
month. I retired to rest at night; my slumbers, as it were, waited on and
ministered to by the assemblance of grand shapes which I had contemplated
during the day. They congregated round me; the unstained snowy mountain-top,
the glittering pinnacle, the pine woods, and ragged bare ravine, the eagle,
soaring amidst the clouds—they all gathered round me and bade me be at peace.
Where had
they fled when the next morning I awoke? All of soul-inspiriting fled with
sleep, and dark melancholy clouded every thought. The rain was pouring in
torrents, and thick mists hid the summits of the mountains, so that I even saw
not the faces of those mighty friends. Still I would penetrate their misty veil
and seek them in their cloudy retreats. What were rain and storm to me? My mule
was brought to the door, and I resolved to ascend to the summit of Montanvert.
I remembered the effect that the view of the tremendous and ever-moving glacier
had produced upon my mind when I first saw it. It had then filled me with a
sublime ecstasy that gave wings to the soul and allowed it to soar from the obscure
world to light and joy. The sight of the awful and majestic in nature had
indeed always the effect of solemnizing my mind and causing me to forget the
passing cares of life. I determined to go without a guide, for I was well
acquainted with the path, and the presence of another would destroy the
solitary grandeur of the scene.
The ascent
is precipitous, but the path is cut into continual and short windings, which
enable you to surmount the perpendicularity of the mountain. It is a scene
terrifically desolate. In a thousand spots the traces of the winter avalanche
may be perceived, where trees lie broken and strewed on the ground, some
entirely destroyed, others bent, leaning upon the jutting rocks of the mountain
or transversely upon other trees. The path, as you ascend higher, is
intersected by ravines of snow, down which stones continually roll from above;
one of them is particularly dangerous, as the slightest sound, such as even
speaking in a loud voice, produces a concussion of air sufficient to draw
destruction upon the head of the speaker. The pines are not tall or luxuriant,
but they are sombre and add an air of severity to the scene. I looked on the
valley beneath; vast mists were rising from the rivers which ran through it and
curling in thick wreaths around the opposite mountains, whose summits were hid
in the uniform clouds, while rain poured from the dark sky and added to the
melancholy impression I received from the objects around me. Alas! Why does man
boast of sensibilities superior to those apparent in the brute; it only renders
them more necessary beings. If our impulses were confined to hunger, thirst,
and desire, we might be nearly free; but now we are moved by every wind that
blows and a chance word or scene that that word may convey to us.
We rest; a dream has power to
poison sleep.
We rise; one wand'ring thought pollutes the day.
We feel, conceive, or reason; laugh or weep,
Embrace fond woe, or cast our cares away;
It is the same: for, be it joy or sorrow,
The path of its departure still is free.
Man's yesterday may ne'er be like his morrow;
Nought may endure but mutability!
We rise; one wand'ring thought pollutes the day.
We feel, conceive, or reason; laugh or weep,
Embrace fond woe, or cast our cares away;
It is the same: for, be it joy or sorrow,
The path of its departure still is free.
Man's yesterday may ne'er be like his morrow;
Nought may endure but mutability!
It was
nearly noon when I arrived at the top of the ascent. For some time I sat upon
the rock that overlooks the sea of ice. A mist covered both that and the
surrounding mountains. Presently a breeze dissipated the cloud, and I descended
upon the glacier. The surface is very uneven, rising like the waves of a
troubled sea, descending low, and interspersed by rifts that sink deep. The
field of ice is almost a league in width, but I spent nearly two hours in
crossing it. The opposite mountain is a bare perpendicular rock. From the side
where I now stood Montanvert was exactly opposite, at the distance of a league;
and above it rose Mont Blanc, in awful majesty. I remained in a recess of the
rock, gazing on this wonderful and stupendous scene. The sea, or rather the
vast river of ice, wound among its dependent mountains, whose aerial summits
hung over its recesses. Their icy and glittering peaks shone in the sunlight
over the clouds. My heart, which was before sorrowful, now swelled with
something like joy; I exclaimed, "Wandering spirits, if indeed ye wander,
and do not rest in your narrow beds, allow me this faint happiness, or take me,
as your companion, away from the joys of life."
As I said
this I suddenly beheld the figure of a man, at some distance, advancing towards
me with superhuman speed. He bounded over the crevices in the ice, among which
I had walked with caution; his stature, also, as he approached, seemed to
exceed that of man. I was troubled; a mist came over my eyes, and I felt a
faintness seize me, but I was quickly restored by the cold gale of the
mountains. I perceived, as the shape came nearer (sight tremendous and
abhorred!) that it was the wretch whom I had created. I trembled with rage and
horror, resolving to wait his approach and then close with him in mortal
combat. He approached; his countenance bespoke bitter anguish, combined with
disdain and malignity, while its unearthly ugliness rendered it almost too
horrible for human eyes. But I scarcely observed this; rage and hatred had at
first deprived me of utterance, and I recovered only to overwhelm him with
words expressive of furious detestation and contempt.
"Devil,"
I exclaimed, "do you dare approach me? And do not you fear the fierce
vengeance of my arm wreaked on your miserable head? Begone, vile insect! Or
rather, stay, that I may trample you to dust! And, oh! That I could, with the
extinction of your miserable existence, restore those victims whom you have so
diabolically murdered!"
"I
expected this reception," said the daemon. "All men hate the
wretched; how, then, must I be hated, who am miserable beyond all living
things! Yet you, my creator, detest and spurn me, thy creature, to whom thou
art bound by ties only dissoluble by the annihilation of one of us. You purpose
to kill me. How dare you sport thus with life? Do your duty towards me, and I
will do mine towards you and the rest of mankind. If you will comply with my
conditions, I will leave them and you at peace; but if you refuse, I will glut
the maw of death, until it be satiated with the blood of your remaining
friends."
"Abhorred
monster! Fiend that thou art! The tortures of hell are too mild a vengeance for
thy crimes. Wretched devil! You reproach me with your creation, come on, then,
that I may extinguish the spark which I so negligently bestowed."
My rage
was without bounds; I sprang on him, impelled by all the feelings which can arm
one being against the existence of another.
He easily
eluded me and said,
"Be
calm! I entreat you to hear me before you give vent to your hatred on my
devoted head. Have I not suffered enough, that you seek to increase my misery?
Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I
will defend it. Remember, thou hast made me more powerful than thyself; my
height is superior to thine, my joints more supple. But I will not be tempted
to set myself in opposition to thee. I am thy creature, and I will be even mild
and docile to my natural lord and king if thou wilt also perform thy part, the
which thou owest me. Oh, Frankenstein, be not equitable to every other and
trample upon me alone, to whom thy justice, and even thy clemency and
affection, is most due. Remember that I am thy creature; I ought to be thy
Adam, but I am rather the fallen angel, whom thou drivest from joy for no
misdeed. Everywhere I see bliss, from which I alone am irrevocably excluded. I
was benevolent and good; misery made me a fiend. Make me happy, and I shall
again be virtuous."
"Begone!
I will not hear you. There can be no community between you and me; we are
enemies. Begone, or let us try our strength in a fight, in which one must
fall."
"How
can I move thee? Will no entreaties cause thee to turn a favourable eye upon
thy creature, who implores thy goodness and compassion? Believe me,
Frankenstein, I was benevolent; my soul glowed with love and humanity; but am I
not alone, miserably alone? You, my creator, abhor me; what hope can I gather
from your fellow creatures, who owe me nothing? They spurn and hate me. The
desert mountains and dreary glaciers are my refuge. I have wandered here many
days; the caves of ice, which I only do not fear, are a dwelling to me, and the
only one which man does not grudge. These bleak skies I hail, for they are
kinder to me than your fellow beings. If the multitude of mankind knew of my
existence, they would do as you do, and arm themselves for my destruction.
Shall I not then hate them who abhor me? I will keep no terms with my enemies.
I am miserable, and they shall share my wretchedness. Yet it is in your power
to recompense me, and deliver them from an evil which it only remains for you
to make so great, that not only you and your family, but thousands of others,
shall be swallowed up in the whirlwinds of its rage. Let your compassion be
moved, and do not disdain me. Listen to my tale; when you have heard that,
abandon or commiserate me, as you shall judge that I deserve. But hear me. The
guilty are allowed, by human laws, bloody as they are, to speak in their own
defence before they are condemned. Listen to me, Frankenstein. You accuse me of
murder, and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience, destroy your own
creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man! Yet I ask you not to spare me;
listen to me, and then, if you can, and if you will, destroy the work of your
hands."
"Why
do you call to my remembrance," I rejoined, "circumstances of which I
shudder to reflect, that I have been the miserable origin and author? Cursed be
the day, abhorred devil, in which you first saw light! Cursed (although I curse
myself) be the hands that formed you! You have made me wretched beyond
expression. You have left me no power to consider whether I am just to you or
not. Begone! Relieve me from the sight of your detested form."
"Thus
I relieve thee, my creator," he said, and placed his hated hands before my
eyes, which I flung from me with violence; "thus I take from thee a sight
which you abhor. Still thou canst listen to me and grant me thy compassion. By
the virtues that I once possessed, I demand this from you. Hear my tale; it is
long and strange, and the temperature of this place is not fitting to your fine
sensations; come to the hut upon the mountain. The sun is yet high in the
heavens; before it descends to hide itself behind your snowy precipices and
illuminate another world, you will have heard my story and can decide. On you
it rests, whether I quit forever the neighbourhood of man and lead a harmless
life, or become the scourge of your fellow creatures and the author of your own
speedy ruin."
As he said
this he led the way across the ice; I followed. My heart was full, and I did
not answer him, but as I proceeded, I weighed the various arguments that he had
used and determined at least to listen to his tale. I was partly urged by
curiosity, and compassion confirmed my resolution. I had hitherto supposed him
to be the murderer of my brother, and I eagerly sought a confirmation or denial
of this opinion. For the first time, also, I felt what the duties of a creator
towards his creature were, and that I ought to render him happy before I
complained of his wickedness. These motives urged me to comply with his demand.
We crossed the ice, therefore, and ascended the opposite rock. The air was
cold, and the rain again began to descend; we entered the hut, the fiend with
an air of exultation, I with a heavy heart and depressed spirits. But I
consented to listen, and seating myself by the fire which my odious companion
had lighted, he thus began his tale.
Chapter 11
"It
is with considerable difficulty that I remember the original era of my being;
all the events of that period appear confused and indistinct. A strange
multiplicity of sensations seized me, and I saw, felt, heard, and smelt at the
same time; and it was, indeed, a long time before I learned to distinguish
between the operations of my various senses. By degrees, I remember, a stronger
light pressed upon my nerves, so that I was obliged to shut my eyes. Darkness
then came over me and troubled me, but hardly had I felt this when, by opening
my eyes, as I now suppose, the light poured in upon me again. I walked and, I
believe, descended, but I presently found a great alteration in my sensations.
Before, dark and opaque bodies had surrounded me, impervious to my touch or
sight; but I now found that I could wander on at liberty, with no obstacles
which I could not either surmount or avoid. The light became more and more
oppressive to me, and the heat wearying me as I walked, I sought a place where
I could receive shade. This was the forest near Ingolstadt; and here I lay by
the side of a brook resting from my fatigue, until I felt tormented by hunger
and thirst. This roused me from my nearly dormant state, and I ate some berries
which I found hanging on the trees or lying on the ground. I slaked my thirst
at the brook, and then lying down, was overcome by sleep.
"It
was dark when I awoke; I felt cold also, and half frightened, as it were,
instinctively, finding myself so desolate. Before I had quitted your apartment,
on a sensation of cold, I had covered myself with some clothes, but these were
insufficient to secure me from the dews of night. I was a poor, helpless,
miserable wretch; I knew, and could distinguish, nothing; but feeling pain
invade me on all sides, I sat down and wept.
"Soon
a gentle light stole over the heavens and gave me a sensation of pleasure. I
started up and beheld a radiant form rise from among the trees. [The moon] I
gazed with a kind of wonder. It moved slowly, but it enlightened my path, and I
again went out in search of berries. I was still cold when under one of the
trees I found a huge cloak, with which I covered myself, and sat down upon the
ground. No distinct ideas occupied my mind; all was confused. I felt light, and
hunger, and thirst, and darkness; innumerable sounds rang in my ears, and on
all sides various scents saluted me; the only object that I could distinguish
was the bright moon, and I fixed my eyes on that with pleasure.
"Several
changes of day and night passed, and the orb of night had greatly lessened,
when I began to distinguish my sensations from each other. I gradually saw
plainly the clear stream that supplied me with drink and the trees that shaded
me with their foliage. I was delighted when I first discovered that a pleasant
sound, which often saluted my ears, proceeded from the throats of the little
winged animals who had often intercepted the light from my eyes. I began also
to observe, with greater accuracy, the forms that surrounded me and to perceive
the boundaries of the radiant roof of light which canopied me. Sometimes I
tried to imitate the pleasant songs of the birds but was unable. Sometimes I
wished to express my sensations in my own mode, but the uncouth and
inarticulate sounds which broke from me frightened me into silence again.
"The
moon had disappeared from the night, and again, with a lessened form, showed
itself, while I still remained in the forest. My sensations had by this time
become distinct, and my mind received every day additional ideas. My eyes
became accustomed to the light and to perceive objects in their right forms; I
distinguished the insect from the herb, and by degrees, one herb from another.
I found that the sparrow uttered none but harsh notes, whilst those of the
blackbird and thrush were sweet and enticing.
"One
day, when I was oppressed by cold, I found a fire which had been left by some
wandering beggars, and was overcome with delight at the warmth I experienced
from it. In my joy I thrust my hand into the live embers, but quickly drew it
out again with a cry of pain. How strange, I thought, that the same cause
should produce such opposite effects! I examined the materials of the fire, and
to my joy found it to be composed of wood. I quickly collected some branches,
but they were wet and would not burn. I was pained at this and sat still
watching the operation of the fire. The wet wood which I had placed near the
heat dried and itself became inflamed. I reflected on this, and by touching the
various branches, I discovered the cause and busied myself in collecting a
great quantity of wood, that I might dry it and have a plentiful supply of
fire. When night came on and brought sleep with it, I was in the greatest fear
lest my fire should be extinguished. I covered it carefully with dry wood and
leaves and placed wet branches upon it; and then, spreading my cloak, I lay on
the ground and sank into sleep.
"It
was morning when I awoke, and my first care was to visit the fire. I uncovered
it, and a gentle breeze quickly fanned it into a flame. I observed this also
and contrived a fan of branches, which roused the embers when they were nearly
extinguished. When night came again I found, with pleasure, that the fire gave
light as well as heat and that the discovery of this element was useful to me
in my food, for I found some of the offals that the travellers had left had
been roasted, and tasted much more savoury than the berries I gathered from the
trees. I tried, therefore, to dress my food in the same manner, placing it on
the live embers. I found that the berries were spoiled by this operation, and
the nuts and roots much improved.
"Food,
however, became scarce, and I often spent the whole day searching in vain for a
few acorns to assuage the pangs of hunger. When I found this, I resolved to
quit the place that I had hitherto inhabited, to seek for one where the few
wants I experienced would be more easily satisfied. In this emigration I
exceedingly lamented the loss of the fire which I had obtained through accident
and knew not how to reproduce it. I gave several hours to the serious
consideration of this difficulty, but I was obliged to relinquish all attempt
to supply it, and wrapping myself up in my cloak, I struck across the wood towards
the setting sun. I passed three days in these rambles and at length discovered
the open country. A great fall of snow had taken place the night before, and
the fields were of one uniform white; the appearance was disconsolate, and I
found my feet chilled by the cold damp substance that covered the ground.
"It
was about seven in the morning, and I longed to obtain food and shelter; at
length I perceived a small hut, on a rising ground, which had doubtless been
built for the convenience of some shepherd. This was a new sight to me, and I
examined the structure with great curiosity. Finding the door open, I entered.
An old man sat in it, near a fire, over which he was preparing his breakfast.
He turned on hearing a noise, and perceiving me, shrieked loudly, and quitting
the hut, ran across the fields with a speed of which his debilitated form
hardly appeared capable. His appearance, different from any I had ever before
seen, and his flight somewhat surprised me. But I was enchanted by the
appearance of the hut; here the snow and rain could not penetrate; the ground
was dry; and it presented to me then as exquisite and divine a retreat as
Pandemonium appeared to the demons of hell after their sufferings in the lake
of fire. I greedily devoured the remnants of the shepherd's breakfast, which
consisted of bread, cheese, milk, and wine; the latter, however, I did not
like. Then, overcome by fatigue, I lay down among some straw and fell asleep.
"It
was noon when I awoke, and allured by the warmth of the sun, which shone
brightly on the white ground, I determined to recommence my travels; and,
depositing the remains of the peasant's breakfast in a wallet I found, I
proceeded across the fields for several hours, until at sunset I arrived at a
village. How miraculous did this appear! The huts, the neater cottages, and
stately houses engaged my admiration by turns. The vegetables in the gardens,
the milk and cheese that I saw placed at the windows of some of the cottages,
allured my appetite. One of the best of these I entered, but I had hardly
placed my foot within the door before the children shrieked, and one of the
women fainted. The whole village was roused; some fled, some attacked me,
until, grievously bruised by stones and many other kinds of missile weapons, I
escaped to the open country and fearfully took refuge in a low hovel, quite
bare, and making a wretched appearance after the palaces I had beheld in the
village. This hovel however, joined a cottage of a neat and pleasant
appearance, but after my late dearly bought experience, I dared not enter it.
My place of refuge was constructed of wood, but so low that I could with
difficulty sit upright in it. No wood, however, was placed on the earth, which
formed the floor, but it was dry; and although the wind entered it by
innumerable chinks, I found it an agreeable asylum from the snow and rain.
"Here,
then, I retreated and lay down happy to have found a shelter, however
miserable, from the inclemency of the season, and still more from the barbarity
of man. As soon as morning dawned I crept from my kennel, that I might view the
adjacent cottage and discover if I could remain in the habitation I had found.
It was situated against the back of the cottage and surrounded on the sides
which were exposed by a pig sty and a clear pool of water. One part was open,
and by that I had crept in; but now I covered every crevice by which I might be
perceived with stones and wood, yet in such a manner that I might move them on
occasion to pass out; all the light I enjoyed came through the sty, and that
was sufficient for me.
"Having
thus arranged my dwelling and carpeted it with clean straw, I retired, for I
saw the figure of a man at a distance, and I remembered too well my treatment
the night before to trust myself in his power. I had first, however, provided
for my sustenance for that day by a loaf of coarse bread, which I purloined,
and a cup with which I could drink more conveniently than from my hand of the
pure water which flowed by my retreat. The floor was a little raised, so that
it was kept perfectly dry, and by its vicinity to the chimney of the cottage it
was tolerably warm.
"Being
thus provided, I resolved to reside in this hovel until something should occur
which might alter my determination. It was indeed a paradise compared to the
bleak forest, my former residence, the rain-dropping branches, and dank earth.
I ate my breakfast with pleasure and was about to remove a plank to procure
myself a little water when I heard a step, and looking through a small chink, I
beheld a young creature, with a pail on her head, passing before my hovel. The
girl was young and of gentle demeanour, unlike what I have since found
cottagers and farmhouse servants to be. Yet she was meanly dressed, a coarse
blue petticoat and a linen jacket being her only garb; her fair hair was
plaited but not adorned: she looked patient yet sad. I lost sight of her, and
in about a quarter of an hour she returned bearing the pail, which was now
partly filled with milk. As she walked along, seemingly incommoded by the
burden, a young man met her, whose countenance expressed a deeper despondence.
Uttering a few sounds with an air of melancholy, he took the pail from her head
and bore it to the cottage himself. She followed, and they disappeared.
Presently I saw the young man again, with some tools in his hand, cross the
field behind the cottage; and the girl was also busied, sometimes in the house
and sometimes in the yard.
"On
examining my dwelling, I found that one of the windows of the cottage had
formerly occupied a part of it, but the panes had been filled up with wood. In
one of these was a small and almost imperceptible chink through which the eye
could just penetrate. Through this crevice a small room was visible,
whitewashed and clean but very bare of furniture. In one corner, near a small
fire, sat an old man, leaning his head on his hands in a disconsolate attitude.
The young girl was occupied in arranging the cottage; but presently she took
something out of a drawer, which employed her hands, and she sat down beside
the old man, who, taking up an instrument, began to play and to produce sounds
sweeter than the voice of the thrush or the nightingale. It was a lovely sight,
even to me, poor wretch who had never beheld aught beautiful before. The silver
hair and benevolent countenance of the aged cottager won my reverence, while
the gentle manners of the girl enticed my love. He played a sweet mournful air
which I perceived drew tears from the eyes of his amiable companion, of which
the old man took no notice, until she sobbed audibly; he then pronounced a few
sounds, and the fair creature, leaving her work, knelt at his feet. He raised
her and smiled with such kindness and affection that I felt sensations of a
peculiar and overpowering nature; they were a mixture of pain and pleasure,
such as I had never before experienced, either from hunger or cold, warmth or
food; and I withdrew from the window, unable to bear these emotions.
"Soon
after this the young man returned, bearing on his shoulders a load of wood. The
girl met him at the door, helped to relieve him of his burden, and taking some
of the fuel into the cottage, placed it on the fire; then she and the youth
went apart into a nook of the cottage, and he showed her a large loaf and a
piece of cheese. She seemed pleased and went into the garden for some roots and
plants, which she placed in water, and then upon the fire. She afterwards
continued her work, whilst the young man went into the garden and appeared
busily employed in digging and pulling up roots. After he had been employed
thus about an hour, the young woman joined him and they entered the cottage
together.
"The
old man had, in the meantime, been pensive, but on the appearance of his
companions he assumed a more cheerful air, and they sat down to eat. The meal
was quickly dispatched. The young woman was again occupied in arranging the
cottage, the old man walked before the cottage in the sun for a few minutes,
leaning on the arm of the youth. Nothing could exceed in beauty the contrast between
these two excellent creatures. One was old, with silver hairs and a countenance
beaming with benevolence and love; the younger was slight and graceful in his
figure, and his features were moulded with the finest symmetry, yet his eyes
and attitude expressed the utmost sadness and despondency. The old man returned
to the cottage, and the youth, with tools different from those he had used in
the morning, directed his steps across the fields.
"Night
quickly shut in, but to my extreme wonder, I found that the cottagers had a
means of prolonging light by the use of tapers, and was delighted to find that
the setting of the sun did not put an end to the pleasure I experienced in
watching my human neighbours. In the evening the young girl and her companion were
employed in various occupations which I did not understand; and the old man
again took up the instrument which produced the divine sounds that had
enchanted me in the morning. So soon as he had finished, the youth began, not
to play, but to utter sounds that were monotonous, and neither resembling the
harmony of the old man's instrument nor the songs of the birds; I since found
that he read aloud, but at that time I knew nothing of the science of words or
letters.
"The
family, after having been thus occupied for a short time, extinguished their
lights and retired, as I conjectured, to rest."
To be
continued